Hello to my lovely writing partner and our readers (hi, all two of you. You’re awesome). It’s been a month to the day, I think, since I last posted… Oops. Annnd I also haven’t been working on my novel. Can you say double-oops?
I also didn’t finish NaNoWriMo. Not even close. Ouch, triple-whammy to my pride.
I can’t blame it on being busy. I mean, I’ve gotten a little busier, but not enough to detract from potential writing time.
I can’t blame it on being uninspired. If there’s one thing I’ve learned about writing, you get inspired sometimes, but you only get writing done when you–surprise!–actually sit down, put pen to paper/fingers to keyboard, and WRITE.
I wince at calling myself lazy, at least in the authoring a novel sense. And distracted by reading blogs about motivation and writing, all the while failing to actually write (I sense a strain of irony here).
I think the thing is, I’m afraid.
I’m afraid of writing a crappy novel that nobody, not even myself, will end up liking at all. And I’ll have put in a lot of time and effort for no tangible reward. Except a wounded ego and crushed dreams. But those aren’t rewards, so.
So I put off my fear and facing that fear by gallivanting off to the internet. Facebook, blogs, forums, oh my! “Hi, my name is Leah, and I’m an interwebz junkie…”
“Hi, Leah.”
The thing is… I don’t even know. I haven’t even been inspired lately, except by the quite wonderful anime Princess Tutu. And that was to write the first chapter of a fanfiction for that very series. I got in about 3,000-ish words, which I think is nothing to scoff at, considering my writerly track record…
…How’s that fanfiction been coming along since, you ask? Take a wild guess.
Anyway, I apologize to Nonny, my beauteous writing partner, for leaving her hanging blog-wise. I haven’t been the best accountability partner for either her or myself.
So, how to crank up the level of accountability, leave me squirming with guilt every time I don’t write when I say I will? Any suggestions?
I do know one thing, that I really do want to get writing in on my novel, and also that I want to have more content flowing into this here writing blog.
I will kick this (renewed) posting off by:
- Writing a minimum of 100 words a day. I know for sure that I can do this amount, easy peasy.
- Posting about things that inspire me, both writing and otherwise. I.e., stuff that I think is cool/pretty/funny/thought-provoking/etc. in an inspiring sort of way.
Wish me luck, kick me in the pants (preferably just figuratively) if I haven’t been posting in a while (see the Contact page up there?), and so on. And now for my obligatory first and last paragraphs, this time from my Princess Tutu fanfiction’s first chapter (can be found here on Fanfiction.net, if you’re curious. Beware of spoilers for the anime):
The whole town, seemingly the entire kingdom, was in the streets, the citizens decked out in their finest clothes, their brightest smiles. Music could be heard streaming from every direction; color and warm light met Duck’s eyes everywhere she looked.
~The Art of Perseverance, Chapter 1
“No. Anyway, just think about what I said.” Seemingly without thinking, he caught her hand up in his and tugged her towards where the chariot was turning a corner. “Come on, we’re going to lose them if we don’t catch up.”
~The Art of Perseverance, Chapter 1